Identity crisis… who really am I😖?

Everyday I spend a lot of time staring at the mirror to see who is there …
Sometimes I see a different person
Sometimes I see someone familiar yet strange. I tried to fit in but then they said I did not belong there. Like a cloak I have put on an identity that is based on their perception of me. Who really am I?  Well, I have no clue! 

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Dear beautiful one🌹,

Your identity is not in who others say you are but in Christ (Col 3:3).

When we talk about identity crisis, we talk about being uncertain of who we truly are. We begin to ask questions like “who am I? ” “what’s my purpose?” and so on.  This can make us to begin to seek our identity in the wrong places. We see ourselves trying to fit in. We begin to allow our surroundings/circumstances to define us.

Who are you in Christ?

You are an heir of God and a joint-heir with Christ Jesus (Rom8:17)
You are the fragrance of Christ (2Cor2:15)
You are God’s friend (John15:15)
You are free from condemnation (Rom8:1)
You are free in Christ (Rom8:2)
You are a chosen generation (1Peter2:9)

You are all these and much more 😍!

Revelation of your identity leads to the fulfilment of your divine purpose.

When you know who you are, you will be able to fulfil your divine purpose. You will begin to live as Christ would have you live.

You need to know this… Your past  does not define you!  

2Cor 5:17: Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. 

Yeah, let that sink in😄. You are a new creature. You have a new identity. In Christ you have no past! How beautiful is that 😄? So you don’t have to dwell in your past. God doesn’t want you to. Also, when we begin to dwell on our past mistakes or current circumstances, we give those things the power to define us.

You ought to see yourself the way God sees you. How you see yourself matters a lot. When you begin to see yourself the way God sees you, it changes the way you live.

Our identity is hidden in Christ with God (Col 3:3). When we take our eyes off Christ and begin to focus on other things and seek our identity in the wrong places we keep ourselves off the true path of our purpose.

Where, other than in Christ  have you tried to find your identity? Where have you been trying to fit in lately? The only place you need to fit in is in Christ.

In order to know who you are, you have to know who He is.  Don’t know Him yet?  It is not too late to know Him darling 😍.

Thanks for stopping by today 😘😘😘. Remain  blessed ❤

Song recommendation : I know who I am by Sinach 👉Here

 

 

 



When our identity is blank, we allow everyone and everything else fill in that blank space. 



 

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I let my guard down!

What seemed to be a nap turned into a deep sleep. I was awakened by the sound of feet crunching gravel against the ground. Without even looking up I knew whatever was approaching was so close. Each footstep rang out like a booming heartbeat of a criminal that has just been sentenced to death. As I looked up I was staring at a leopard 🐆. I avoided his gaze at all costs while I attempted to move backwards but my legs were too heavy to move. I laid there on the grass, utterly still. I could hear my heart beating at each step he took forward. “Karen! ” I called out to my friend but she was in deep sleep.
I turned to reach out for my rifle but it was nowhere to be found. I looked around only to see it leaning against a tree several miles away. At this point it dawned on me that there was probably no way out for me. How did I let my guard down? How did I sleep off when I was supposed to be watchful?


Hi beautiful one! How ya doing?😄

The enemy is always on duty 24/7 and as Christians we ought to be prepared at all times. Yeah, we have to always keep our guard up.

1 Peter 5:8

8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:(KJV)

Keep a cool head. Stay alert. The Devil is poised to pounce, and would like nothing better than to catch you napping. (MSG)

So many of us have fallen into deep sleep. Some have been awakened by unexpected crisis while some are still in deep sleep without even realizing it. Like a lullaby 🎶 the enemy has used distractions, pursuit of vanity etc to send a lot of us to sleep.
It is time to rise from our sleep!

1 Thessalonians 5:6 (NIV) 6 So then, let us not be like others, who are asleep, but let us be awake and sober.

The enemy detects vulnerability in his preys.
Mountain lions are opportunistic hunters. They detect vulnerability in their preys and take advantage of circumstances. The enemy uses the same tactics to attack God’s children as well. No wonder the Bible tells us to put on the whole armor of God to be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.

Ephesians 6:13-17 (NIV)

13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place,15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit,which is the word of God.

Just like it is essential to always put on a life jacket while out on open waters( because it is very difficult to do so when there’s an emergency), we have to put on the whole armor of God to stay prepared.
Thanks for stopping by today 😄. Remain blessed 😘😘😘

Learned anything from this post? Feel free to share in the comment section 😄

Trapped (part two)

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Click 👉 Trapped (part one)


Kam woke up to the sound of the rain lashing down on the rooftop.
She had left her window open all night so her room was extremely cold. The weather wasn’t encouraging. It was better the previous Sunday. As she stared at the ceiling unpleasant thoughts flooded her mind. She had no reason whatsoever to get up from the bed. She wanted to be alone all day but as a worker in the Christian youth fellowship she needed to be in church. It took everything within her to get up and walk to the kitchen.

“You don’t look fine” Sara looked at Kam as she poured water 💧 from the jar into her cup.
“I’m fine, just tired ” Kam tilted her head down breaking every eye contact.
Sara reached out for another plate. “I made gizzdodo. You can have some before leaving for church “.
“Maybe when I get back.”
She had no appetite whatsoever. She knew all she needed to do was talk to someone. She was in dire need of help.

 

After service, Kam rushed home  before anyone could notice her presence. As she stepped into her apartment  her phone 📱 rang. It was Elaina. She stared at her phone for a few seconds, reluctant to pick up the call. After a long stare, she finally  picked up.
“How are you doing? ” Elaina asked gently.
“I’m f- fine “.
“I looked for you after service. You said you had something to say. ”
“Ohh, t-that”. Clears throat. “Don’t worry about that. It’s nothing.”
“Are you sure? Elaina asked. “I don’t believe you. I could detect the undertone of worry when we spoke in the morning.”
” You can talk to me.” her tone softened.
“S-ure. It’s nothing. I will let you know if there’s anything. Thanks”
“Alright. Don’t forget you can always talk to me  whenever you need someone to talk to. ” Elaina reassured her.
“Okay, thanks “. She said as she dropped the call.

Do you think you are worth her time?. You are worthless,why bother her? 

“Not today, Satan”
“Not today! ” She wasn’t gonna have it today. Maybe tomorrow.
   Can anything good come out of  you? Take a look at everyon—The voices seemed to have joined forces this time. They were unabating.
“that’s a lie! ”
“enough is enough! You can’t have me no more! ”
“I refuse to see myself the way you see me!

The voices were silent again. She felt a great relief. She dared talk back to the devil.

Kam knew she still had to talk to someone and nothing would stop her this time. She reached out for her phone immediately.  Elaina’s number wasn’t going through. She tried a couple of times more before it went through.

“E-lai-na, c-can we talk? ” her voice was as brittle as the first ice of autumn.
“sure. You want me to come over?” Sara’s voice was gentle.
“Y-yes”
“Alright. I’ll be there in an hour or two. ”
“Thanks” she said then dropped the call.

 

Kam was tense. Her hands were shaking. There was an unusual feeling. She couldn’t tell what it was but she hadn’t experienced it in a long time.
She opened her mouth to speak, but no words came out.  She attempted again to speak, but was silenced by a warm hug. A tear broke free of her eyes and spilled on her cheeks.
“You don’t have to say anything. I understand it all, because I have been there too. ” Elaina said.

Deep breath. “The enemy will always be in the business of tricking God’s children. His mouth is full of deceit. You have to be aware that you have the truth in you – Christ. Elaina paused, then gave her a reassuring smile. “So when next he attacks, stand up to him with God’s word. Remind him he has been placed under your feet.”
Kam was shaking but she felt peace within – peace that surpassed all understanding. She knew it might take a while but she would surely overcome.

Time to time Elaina prayed with her, cracked jokes and did all sorts with her. She was ready to climb down into the crevasse to get her out if needed. .

Inch by inch, Kam began to cut away those clothes that smelled of death. Those shackles of depression, doubt, fear, guilt began to break off . She was able to laugh more, take pride in her appearance and see the beauty around her.
She knew she would tell her story someday – to set others free too.

 

“Gr-! grr-ah! grr-ahhhh! ”
Kam reached out for her phone in an attempt to snooze her alarm again. Her eyes were puffy. She hadn’t gotten much sleep the previous night. She was studying for her exams.
“7:30!” She quickly jumped out of her bed. She couldn’t afford missing her exam a second time. The head of department had granted her permission to sit for the exam.
As she packed her books she heard a voice  in her head.
You have failed countless times spiritually. Remember you once had thoughts of taking your own life. More than once have you stumbled in the fai—

She laughed out so loud.
My father keeps no record of my past.
“You can’t have me Satan! ”
“Not today! ”
“Neither tomorrow! ”
“Nor the day after!”
“Never! ”
Because I’m no longer bound.

 



Hi beautiful one! How ya doing 😀? Grab a glass of wine 🍷, let’s gist about God’s word😀.

Zechariah 3:1-2

Then he showed me Joshua the high priest standing before the angel of the LORD, and Satan standing at his right hand to accuse him. The LORD said to Satan, “The LORD rebuke you, Satan! Indeed, the LORD who has chosen Jerusalem rebuke you! Is this not a brand plucked from the fire?”

The enemy will forever remain in the business of accusing and attacking God’s children and  we ought to always stand up to him with God’s word. 

Kam was able to realize she had the truth in her – Christ!

When next the enemy reminds you of your past sins, remind him that you stand blameless before God – Colossians 1:22. 

If he says you can’t,  remind him you can through Christ who strengthens you  – Philippians 4:13.

If you ever doubt God’s love, look at the CROSS.

Keep the enemy where he belongs – UNDER YOUR FEET! 

 

Song recommendation : Click 👉 Free indeed by Timothy Reddick

Learned anything from this post? Feel free to share in the comment section 😄.

If you read till this point Oya come and collect puff puff 😁😁.  Thank you  for stopping by today😘😘😘. Remain blessed ❤.

 

 


When the enemy traps you,  he holds you back from being all that God wants you to be. You have to realize that Christ has given you the authority to stand up to the devil. So get up, break off those shackles and talk back to the devil! 


 

Trapped (part one)

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Waking up was a nightmare for Kambili. She was sitting with legs crossed and knees spread wide apart on the Sandy shore all alone, the cruelly narrow horizon staring at her just before her alarm 🕠 went off. It was much better there. If she had her way she would go back and never come back. For a minute or two she stared into thin air. She made an attempt to get up, but she had no strength in her. It felt as though her entire being was being trod on by heavy feet in heavy boots. It took every bit of her energy to move to the other side of the bed. The previous night had been terrible. She had had self-harming thoughts 💭. Why she was unable to harm herself  remained a mystery. She wished she could shut every connection she had with the world. Her eyes were sunken – into the dark abyss. Anyone could tell she had cried herself to sleep the night before. Her tears had left prints on her face – it was like the map of Africa.
“Kam! ” her roommate walked into the room holding two dresses – a double strap mustard yellow dress and a dark blue embroidered dress. She had wanted her to help her pick an outfit.
There was no response from her.
“Kam! ” Sara called out again this time in a louder voice.
“Have you been crying?.”
“C-ry Crying? ” “N-o no way!” she said with a faltering voice , bowing her head in a bid to avoid further questions.
“well, if you say so! ”
“I need you to help me pick a dress”
“The b-blue one” Kam barely squeaked out after a hesitant look.
“Thanks” Sara said as she hurriedly walked out of the room. She had a bus to catch up with. She had received a call earlier to meet up with someone and she was behind time.
Sara had left and it seemed the brightness was replaced with emptiness again.
Kam moved towards the mirror. As she picked up her hair brush in an attempt to brush her hair those thoughts 💭 flooded her mind yet again. This time around they were so loud 🔊 and clear. She tried all she could to ward them off but the voices were unrelenting.
          You aren’t good enough.
          You can never be! 

The voices went on and on.
“Yes! You are right! ” “Isn’t it obvious?. I’m not good enough.  I’ll  never be. ”
A tear 😢 spilled onto her ‘used-to-be’ chubby cheeks. She had given in once again. Her ears had gotten accustomed to the lies of the enemy that they became the truth she knew. Her eyes – all they could see were what the enemy showed them.
She wished she could escape it all – but it followed her like a shadow crushing her soul  on the inside. The weight of it all – she could no longer bear.
She laid back in her bed. It was her final examination that morning but she couldn’t care less. She had lost the little motivation she had.
      Talk to someone.  The voice was gentle.
“Everyone seems perfect. ”
“Why bother them with my imperfections? ”
” I ain’t even worth it anyways.”
Her phone 📱 rang.
“could that be Sara? What has she forgotten this time? ” Sara was a bit of a scatterbrain so Kam was sure she might have  forgotten something.
The phone rang a couple of times more – it seemed the caller didn’t want to give up.
” hey Kam! I’ve been calling. ” It was Elaina.
“We are about to go in for exams. Where are you? ” She asked with a gentle voice.
” E-rh erhm I-I I can’t make it. I’m not feeling well. ” She stuttered.
” Alright. I hope you get well soon.”
“Thanks, bye.” She dropped the call switching off her phone in order not to receive more calls.
She faltered and then stopped to look herself in the mirror once more. She stood there, her eyes staring back at her. She could hear the enemy laughing at her misery. She had just missed an examination she studied so hard for. She was gradually loosing herself. She could see it. But she couldn’t help it…well so she  thought. She was aware they were all lies – lies from the enemy. She knew she had been trapped – in her own grave clothes. Trapped – by the enemy’s lies. She made an attempt to speak the word – God’s word but her lips were glued together which made words impossible. She wished she could tear off her own skin just to feel clean. If nothing else, she was sure of one thing – her salvation or so she had thought.
“Could he be right?”
” I’m I truly unworthy ? ” “I’m I actually saved? ”

No way was she beginning to doubt her salvation. She shrugged her shoulders. She reached out for her phone 📱 to distract herself from those unpleasant thoughts.
         You see, nothing good can come out of you. The voices were back.

  You have failed countless times. You are a failure. Everyone else is better than you. Your life is miserable . You can’t — The voices were unflagging. They didn’t seem to stop, not even to gasp for imaginary air.
” sh-shut up! ”
“sh-sh shut up! Tears flooded her cheeks.
The voices were silent. It looked like they obeyed her this time.



Hi beautiful one!  I know you  like gist😀.  Oya grab your coffee let’s gist about God’s word .

43 When he had said this, Jesus called in a loud voice, “Lazarus, come out!”44 The dead man came out, his hands and feet wrapped with strips of linen,and a cloth around his face. Jesus said to them, “Take off the grave clothes and let him go.”

John 11:43-44 (NIV)

When Christ had resurrected Lazarus from the dead he commanded that his grave clothes be taken. Lazarus was given a new life but on the outside he was still bound. Now, until those grave clothes were taken off, Lazarus was still bound.

Many of us today just like Kambili have been  saved yet trapped and imprisoned in our grave clothes. What are these grave clothes ? These grave clothes can be guilt of past sin,  past spiritual failures, fear, you name it.  Yes, the enemy can also trap you with doubts – of who you are and what you can do in Christ. He can trap you with sickness too  – remember the woman in Luke 13:11 whom the enemy kept bound for 18 years with infirmity?

The enemy knows he can’t take away your salvation so he works hard to make sure he keeps you bound to prevent  you from being all that God wants you to be.

In Kam’s case she was bound by depression,  fear and self-doubt.  Do you think she would be able to break off those shackles ? I’m curious o,  you nko? Stay tuned 😀😀.

What are those lies the enemy tells you  that have become the truth you know?

We will continue our ‘amebo’ next time😀 . If you read till this point Oya chop knuckle  👊.

Thanks for stopping by 😊! Remain blessed. 😘😘😘

 

 


When the enemy traps you,  he holds you back from being all that God wants you to be.

You have to realize that Christ has given you the authority to stand up to the devil.  So get up,  break off those shackles and talk back to the devil!


 

🎶First of all, Introduction 🎶

Hello Beautiful one! Welcome to the blog! So I would have started this blog a long time ago  but fear and uncertainty dino let me (I had a lot of ‘what ifs’ running in my head 🙈) – 🎶 please don’t judge me 🙈 🎶. Yes! I wanted to be certain  I had everything all planned out before making any move (you know na 😁) but today I have decided to take the step of faith. I believe that as long as I keep following Him, I will keep being in the right path.

What has God placed in your heart to do?  What is stopping you from doing it? Fear, doubt or uncertainty? You don’t have to have it all planned out. It’s time to take the step of Faith! Someone’s blessings might be dependent on that, you never know .

I believe this blog would be everything faith(yes o, this one is essential😁)+ inspiration all spiced with fun of course (Christianity is not a boring something 😀😀).

Thanks for stopping by 😊. Remain blessed 😘😘😘